We all need time to reset.
We all need to time to reset if truth be told. Sometimes we know that and plan it in advance at other times our body stops us.
I've had the blessing today to be going in for some minor surgery, which has allowed me a day to stop, rest, and reset.
I shouldn't have let it get that far, but hey I'm not perfect, pretty damn near it :-) though I can make mistakes sometimes too, but in all honesty it's been a blessing today to have this space.
This morning I got to speak to an amazing health and well being practitioner, who helped me to see, what I already know, I like to play dumb sometimes I pretend I don't know - simply to avoid the responsibility, power and the simplicity of what I do know - exhausting I know. And I wonder why I am exhausted, it's even tiring writing that itself.
But it was beautiful to simply have the space to share, feel, and claim myself.
There was space this morning to rest, to come back to bed, not to sleep, to write which is a great process in itself, but also to allow my body to lie and be still, you know that deep rest, that isn't an oh my god I'm exhausted and fall into bed, but a deep deep settlement, I could literally feel my body re-setting on the inside. A bit like when you press the button on your broadband hub to reset it, it needs time to go off, reset itself, things start to flicker and re-connect. And that's what is happening in my body today.
And for me that is what today is all about - resetting.
And we can all do this no matter how we feel, what is happening or happened in our lives, we can all heal, from everything.
The learning moving forwards for me now, is to not react to what I am so sensitive to feeling all around me, to not fight the simplicity of what I am aware of, what I can feel going on for other people, things happening in work, home, places we walk into, you know our 6th sense our intuition, I am simply to honour that and how easy I feel things, feel them, give myself space to stop and read what's going on for people, myself, before I respond, be that needing to do, say something or simply read and observe, bringing a body free of reaction. And gosh how less exhausted I'll be then.
Without perfection, of course I won't nail it 100% but at least 70 -90 % of the time is doable, I know theres a place I can be and a way I can live that I won't react most of the time, for me my reactions are very subtle, and if I do, there will be more supportive things in place rather than reaching for sugar or other things to try numb, dull what I feel, like going for a walk, or taking a bit of time for myself to stop, breath, talk with my partner, or even write down what I have seen and observed during the day, then looking at the bigger picture, leaving me free to come home to my family, and allowing me more space in my body and day,
Taking time too reset is something we all need now and again.